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So, everything seems to be leveling out.
Finally.
I might be able to get out of this dark space.
I'm just worried about these panic attacks.
They used to be few and far between but I've had two just recently.
Withing 24 hours of each other.
I literally woke up and then freaked out for no reason.
I just couldn't stop.
As it stands, I'm gonna take it as a freak thing and move away from it, but it still has me slightly worried.
Anxiety is a bad enough burden without constant panic attacks.
But I'm alive now.
I guess that's what matters.
My terrible crush on Mystery Person is still hanging around, but I guess it's gonna be something I have to live with.
Don't get me wrong, it can be frustrating, but I think I'll live.
I think that I'm getting past being angry but now I have some raw anxiety to deal with.
And with exams coming, it looks like it could just get worse...
I'm not doing well at all...
I'm really not motivated...
I'm trying to push through, trying to reach my goals, but I'm lacking motivation right now...
Which I really need...
Motivation and Inspiration...
And more tattoos.
Definitely.
Absolutly.
For me and for other people.
Right now, though, I'm bored and need SOMETHING to entertain me.
Meh.
Well, guess I could sleep.
Or draw.
Or run around like a mad cat.
It's nearly 3 am so it's the right time for the cat one.
I'd rather not wake people up though.
That's just mean.

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