You Got It

I have no idea why I haven't been posting.
Probably coz we just got internet back.
Silly people, stealing money and then shutting off the internet in a student flat...
Silly...
Betraying our trust...
Meh.
They're gone now :)
But now, onto a proper post.
I have realised I don't write these like everyone else.
I write in, like, short sentences.
As opposed in paragraphs.
Coz I'm special :)
You know who else is special?
You.
Yes, you reading this.
You can say it isn't true.
But it is.
Do you now how many different events had to happen to get you?
Like, a lot.
Ten, even.
That's heaps :)
 But it is pretty easy to feel like you aren't special.
Like no one cares about you.
But someone, somewhere, does care.
I know I care.
You may say I'm insane for caring or saying you're amazing.
But I'm just saying what I see.
And I see an amazing, beautiful person.
Someone who deserves to be loved.
Someone who is kind and caring.
Seriously, you have wings, you're so fly :)
A good friend.
A loving sister.
A caring brother.
You are special.

<3

The In Crowd

Ever felt like you're in a play and everyone else got the script but you?
That's how I constantly feel.
I feel left behind, awkward and clumsy.
I feel ever so slightly socially awkward.
But hey.
Could be worse.
I could, I dunno, stammer over the PA at work?
Oh wait...
Did that...
Or stutter horribly when I...
Oh yeah...
Or...
You know what?
I like it.
I'm awkward.
Sometimes its a little inconvenient or I get lonesome because I don't have the courage to talk to people.
But I am a very anti social person.
You know what I hate?
Social hierarchies.
They're stupid.
People climbing over each other to try be noticed and popular.
To be in the "In Crowd".
Well, I do it my way.
I don't wanna be them.
I wanna be me :)
Its fun.
Especially being a social out cast.
I like having friends but I don't like sticking to a certain group.
Or stereotype.
Stereotyping is dumb.
I mean, you don't know the person.
So why judge them based on how they dress?
Or who the hang out with?
Talk to them, get to know them and see who they are.
And then judge them ;P
But honestly, I don't care if people judge me.
I'm a bitch because I'm straightforward and honest.
I'm stubborn because I stand up for myself and what I believe.
I'm difficult because I won't be walked all over.
And yes, I may lack some confidence, but I'm getting better :)
I'm not so timid anymore.
Helps when I have my special someone who isn't afraid to give me a kick up the ass when I need it :)
And I do need it a lot.
I prefer people being straight up honest with me.
As opposed to dressing up the truth, beating round the bush or just plain lying.
Speak honestly.
A painful truth is better than a comforting lie.
Because the truth always comes out regardless.
Always.
It gets you truer friends.
People who are trustworthy and loyal.
As opposed to backstabbers and fakes.
Half those popular people only care for themselves.
So why try be part of their group?
Be true to you.
I'm never gonna be in the "In Crowd".

<3

Tospy Turvy

It's late.
I'm so tired...
That's not normal.
Usually I'm wide awake until two.
Meh.
It's nerve wrecking, waiting to start the most intense semester of my life.
Yes, I did indeed get into my course :)
But now I have heaps of hard work to do...
Yea, I'm nervous.
But it'll totally be worth it once I have my dream job.
Helping sick and injured animals.
No offense, but I much rather prefer animals to people.
Don't get me wrong, there are a group of people that I love.
Especially my special someone :)
But I prefer animals to every one else.
Animals are not judgmental, they take only what they need, they look out for each other...
And dogs; they love unconditionally.
Did you know that when a dog sees it's owner, it's brain releases the same chemical that our human brains do when we fall in love?
So, basically, dogs fall in love each time they see their owner.
That explains why they are so excited when you come home, why they always come back to you even if you've told them off, why they get so sad when you leave...
Animals are awesome.
I want a dog and/or a cat of my own.
But I can't have one :(
Well, yet anyway.
I can't wait to start my course :)
But lately, I've been getting headaches, mood swings and vivid nightmares...
I think I need to go on a course of antibiotics then on probiotics along with a full body detox.
That sounds like it'd be good for me.
Maybe I will.
I need to get my tattoo design sorted too.
I want one or two swallows holding a banner which says hope.
But I can't find the perfect design.
And I can't draw decent swallows.
I'll just have to keep looking, I guess.
Tongue piercings are awesome.
Mine is almost healed up.
I have a cool new bar for it once it has :)
I can't wait.
Next Wednesday is the day I cam change it.
Well, I think I should sleep.
Night and sweet dreams.

<3