The In Crowd

Ever felt like you're in a play and everyone else got the script but you?
That's how I constantly feel.
I feel left behind, awkward and clumsy.
I feel ever so slightly socially awkward.
But hey.
Could be worse.
I could, I dunno, stammer over the PA at work?
Oh wait...
Did that...
Or stutter horribly when I...
Oh yeah...
Or...
You know what?
I like it.
I'm awkward.
Sometimes its a little inconvenient or I get lonesome because I don't have the courage to talk to people.
But I am a very anti social person.
You know what I hate?
Social hierarchies.
They're stupid.
People climbing over each other to try be noticed and popular.
To be in the "In Crowd".
Well, I do it my way.
I don't wanna be them.
I wanna be me :)
Its fun.
Especially being a social out cast.
I like having friends but I don't like sticking to a certain group.
Or stereotype.
Stereotyping is dumb.
I mean, you don't know the person.
So why judge them based on how they dress?
Or who the hang out with?
Talk to them, get to know them and see who they are.
And then judge them ;P
But honestly, I don't care if people judge me.
I'm a bitch because I'm straightforward and honest.
I'm stubborn because I stand up for myself and what I believe.
I'm difficult because I won't be walked all over.
And yes, I may lack some confidence, but I'm getting better :)
I'm not so timid anymore.
Helps when I have my special someone who isn't afraid to give me a kick up the ass when I need it :)
And I do need it a lot.
I prefer people being straight up honest with me.
As opposed to dressing up the truth, beating round the bush or just plain lying.
Speak honestly.
A painful truth is better than a comforting lie.
Because the truth always comes out regardless.
Always.
It gets you truer friends.
People who are trustworthy and loyal.
As opposed to backstabbers and fakes.
Half those popular people only care for themselves.
So why try be part of their group?
Be true to you.
I'm never gonna be in the "In Crowd".

<3