Anxious

I can't help it.
I worry and worry so much.
About nothing.
I drive myself crazy.
Make myself sick.
Stop myself sleeping.
I know I should be relaxing.
After all, that's what a holiday is for.
Right?
Yeah.
I'll try chill.
It's just...
Going away has brought my anxiety back full force.
I worry, I miss my special someone.
All I want is his arms around me.
So I can be safe.
Happy.
And I can finally stop worrying.
I don't know why I get so up tight.
I get so nervous and snappy.
I worry about time.
I turn into an utter wreck.
Especially if I'm late.
That really doesn't help.
My darling is the only thing keeping me sane.
He is the voice of reason in my head.
He calms the storm inside me.
He makes me feel safe.
Secure.
Loved.
He is the only person I trust completely and utterly.
He can read me like an open book.
But that doesn't bother me.
I like it.
When I say I'm fine, all I want is someone to look into my eyes, hug me and ask me whats wrong.
And he does that.
He is perfect.
Sonikfyre, I love you.
So much.
You're my guardian angel.
My light in the darkness.
My strength.
The love of my life.
I love you.

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